Life is good

Things have been absolutely fantastic!!!!!! My new relationship continues to blossom every day and now I can reveal his name to be Geoff Saunders. He is so amazing, to the point where I didn't know what I was missing until I found him. He has made my life so much better. I have been able to let go of all the past hurts and literally forget about some of those in my past. 

I am, however, continuing to take things on a slow, day to day basis. I have true faith that this is going to be a very healthy, long-term relationship. In effort to be absolutely honest with myself, I must admit that I do also hope that we end up marrying but I am not going to base my actions or my future on that prospect.

It's kind of ironic how my life changed when I finally let go of unrealistic expectations and just let life flow. 

Small steps, big hopes

Time to continue on my journey of explaining this relationship journey. 

The past month has really been surprising for me; I wasn't expecting to meet someone who truly fills a void in my life. 

Contrary to what I've done in past relationships, I have not rushed anything with this man. I have not dreamed up any expectations nor have I set any type of timeline. This has literally been moving one day at a time and each really does get better than the last. While we have many things in common, our differences seem to complement one another. He is sweet and caring and I find myself caring about him and his kids without my usual need to actually take care of them.

One surprising thing has occurred though, I sometimes find myself compelled to say I love you. I clearly know that we are nowhere near the point of talking actual love but my heart, head and soul are telling me that I can definitely love this man.

Okay, that's enough ruminating about this man and our newly born relationship. I am going to continue to pray that I have found the one and that each day brings us closer together.

How do you know?

For the sake of proper credit, I did not come up with this title on my own. It is the title of a Reese Witherspoon movie from a couple of years ago; also interesting is the fact that I own this movie but have yet to watch it. Anyhoo, I find my personal life on a current path that I had hoped for but never really expected.

I jumped back into the online dating world a few months ago and started having typical results. I went in to this foray with clear guidelines that I was going to follow. I would not message any male first and while I was open to meeting and hanging out, sex was a backburner thought. So after the first huge mistake was made, which was a very conceited, self-centered man, I reevaluated myself and tried again. Strike number two was a young man who seemed very interested and had many things in common. Alas, apparently he found a bigger, better deal because he completely stopped communicating with me without giving any explanation or notice.

After dealing with the mental and emotional fallout from those two, I decided that there had to be something different that I could do. So once again I carefully sifted through the single men on the website. Most of the profiles online are banal at best; I mean it's either a man who thinks he's the greatest catch in the world or a man who has been so hurt that he basically writes a description of hope and despair. In an effort to give everyone a fair shake, I began my reading. 

After a short while, I read a profile that really stopped me in my tracks and made me laugh, in a good way. This man in particular described himself as a good guy who was a sports nut and that any woman that might be interested in him would have to deal with his watching sports or join him in the watching. I guess in a way it felt like a challenge to me, am I woman enough to deal with a man of his type.

I sent him a message and thus started a fairly interesting conversation. At first, things looked kind of iffy at best. This man likes hardcore music compared to my country, he is in the process of a divorce and just in general was different than I expected. However, I decided that I was not going to push him aside, as others have done to me, just because there were a few differences. 

It has been nearly a month since we began seeing each other and close to three weeks since we affirmed that we are only seeing each other. Not to jinx anything but I like this man very much and sincerely hope that things go well. 

Since I have to get off of here, I will continue this update in the next day or so.