I have reached a situation where I really don't know how to handle things. I am incredibly depressed about my relationship and I know that things are not going to change, but I don't feel sure about what I should do.
I feel like an afterthought and the fact that he hasn't done anything to try to remedy the cracks in our relationship give me cause for concern. He barely spends any time with me and when he does it is usually while he is also playing a video game, watching TV or doing some other tasks. I never get his full attention and he never remembers things that I tell him. We rarely have date nights and when we do it's only because his boys are with their mother and I still have to leave my girls home. He thinks that I should let him know how I'm feeling and exactly what I need. So for instance, if I am feeling lonely because we haven't spent more than 20 minutes in each other's company, I have to tell him this because otherwise he believe things are okay. My question becomes why wouldn't he want to be near me on his own, without me having to ask.
Anytime we do things it usually has to revolve around something for him or our time is based on other considerations of his. He talks about how I have let my kids dictate my life but he let's his boys run rampant and if I say anything, he always makes excuses. I am tired of giving and giving but not getting anything back.
I want someone who thinks of me independently and does things because he wants to no because I asked for it. I want someone who wants to be with me and marry me because he can't imagine his life being any other way. I want a man who is not afraid to show his love and doesn't need to be reminded that his partner has needs.
So in the end, my question is this. Do I end this relationship? Or do I become a shell of a person and keep on living this way? All I really want is to be happy and know I'm loved.
