For all of the wonderful, empowering moments I've had lately I have finally hit the low point in this vicious cycle.
I have truly loved learning that I am good enough just on my own; I don't need to be in a relationship to feel my best. On the flip side of that is the darker moments that I am having now. I feel like a completely crashed person, an empty shell.
In some degree I think it's partly just being rundown. I do so much and take care of everyone that I never really take care of myself and no one else is going to take care of me. Sometimes I wish I really could just crawl in a dark hole and hide.
If I don't learn to let go of some of this stress then it is going to start having some adverse effects on me. I'm beginning to notice that a majority of my muscles stay tense when I really should be relaxed, I'm getting tons more headaches than I used to, I constantly feeling like I'm coming down sick and I feel like I am literally one breath away from completely crumbling.
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