Part of my oh-so-interesting life involves being a single adult. Now in the beginning I did not like being single at all, it literally scared the hell out of me. And because I was so scared I ended up getting into some relationships I probably should not have, but I have learned some very valuable lessons. I no longer mind being on my own and not focusing on having a partner. I've come to the conclusion that the right one will come along eventually and more than likely when I'm not actively looking for him.
Anyway, there are a few male acquaintances of mine who are either extremely persistent or almost non-existent. One, whom I'll refer to as M, barely knows me but is trying his hardest to "hook up" with me. Needless to say I am not interested in hooking up and he doesn't seem to get that message. Another, whom I'll refer to as K, is sweet as can be, but I just don't feel anything at all for him yet he is mildly persistent about going out. Mr. S, whom I've loved for half my life, is scared to death of relationships and fails to see what is standing right in front of him. And last but not least is Mr. F, who despite saying he's wanted to go out with me for years and getting lots of encouragement from me, is unable to find any kind of time and also very rarely speaks to me anymore.
When I was married I used to fantasize about what it would be like to be single and great it probably would be. Boy, was I wrong about that. I've met guys that go from one end of the spectrum to the other and I'm really tired of trying. I am no longer desperate to belong to someone or just have someone by my side. I don't need another person to make my life perfect, it already is. Would it be nice to have someone share my life? Absolutely! Am I going to dying trying? No way! The next man I allow into my life is going to need to understand just how lucky he is to be with someone like me.
For now, though I'm not sure if I should chuckle at some of the advances that I receive or be offended that they think I'm easy.
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