There will not be a step backward!

I'm kinda trying to pause my thoughts and feelings right where they are now because I know if I continue I am going to end up regressing in my progress. I have been able to emotionally detach myself more from a person who is just not able to be what I need and I really am afraid that I will allow myself to get pulled back in. I have to admit that the loneliness still digs at me and I find myself thinking about how to meet someone. Inevitably, that gets me to thinking about possibly going back to trying online dating but that is a horrible idea. I have never had very good luck with the whole online thing plus there is the whole thing about not really knowing who it is you are talking to or what their real intentions are.

When I start to feel like this, I keep reminding myself that, first and foremost, I need to take care of myself and my responsibilities. I hear a lot about how you need to love yourself first before someone else can love you. Well, I'm going to make sure that I keep a positive attitude and enjoy myself and my life. People really do look at you differently when you smile and exude happiness and contentment. All of the crazy feelings and disappointment are going to be the fuel for me to take care of myself and present a better me to the world as a whole.