Interesting changes abound!

I have dedicated a great deal of time to addressing my depression and anxiety issues, as well as my self esteem and confidence. I can finally say with great pride that I now actually see changes in me that are moving me in the right direction.

For one, I make it a point of finding joy in every day and of reminding myself of all that I have to be thankful for, praise be to God. Secondly, I have pushed myself to see that my life is absolutely perfect without having a man in my life and that, if I were to be blessed with a relationship with a man, it would be only an addition to my happiness and not the sole cause of it. Thirdly, I have found great joy in that I know I can repeat a situation, previously detrimental to my mental well-being, and find that I can remove most of the emotion I would normally attach and just let things be as they are. Fourthly, I spend a great deal more time improving my relationships with my children and family. I find it easier to express my love and gratitude more than ever before. Fifthly, I have put more pride and time into my schoolwork and am putting more effort into trying to figure out where I want my degree to take me. Sixthly, I am making more conscious efforts to correct my financial blunders and put us on a secure path.

I think that the most poignant thing I have learned is that every single piece of this life that was given to me, is a gift. I have learned to stop looking at things as if I deserve them and more as if have I earned them. I have everything could ever possibly need to succeed in life and admittedly there are quite a number of things that I have taken for granted and passed over.

I like to think of things in the context of "sink or swim". I can choose to stop moving and sink to the bottom of the black hole that life sometimes feels like or I can choose to keep moving and swim to the next island of opportunity. I have to admit that this is a funny choice for a motto considering the fact that I can't swim at all, but it does fit the situation well. What a difference a day makes and I will never stop moving toward that next day!