Loving the new me :-)

So, I have to share how fricking happy I am about recent events. I now have definitive proof that I am a changed person!

I am going to try and not make this the longest story ever but here goes. I had recently met a nice man online and struck up a conversation with him. We chatted via email for awhile and then graduated to texting. Twice now he has taken me to lunch and this past Saturday night he cooked dinner for me and rented a movie for us to watch. He is a really nice guy and seems to be somewhat stable and decent.

 Now here is where the change in me is apparent. Normally, my crazy brain would have me imagining a life with this man and all the trappings that go along with that. However, I haven't really thought about any of that stuff. I like him and he's nice enough but I just don't get that relationship train of thought with him. I'm really comfortable with us just being friends and hanging out.

I can honestly say this is the first time in my entire life where I haven't completely fell like a ton of bricks. It's nice not to feel like just because someone was nice to me that I have just fallen in love with them. To me it is kind of like an affirmation that 1) I don't need a man to be a complete person 2) it isn't really difficult to wait for the one you deserve and 3) my heart may still have some scars but it has healed twice as better than it ever was.

I'm already making big plans for 2014 and I trust in myself and God that it will be the best year yet. There really is nothing that can stop me now!!!!