Blaaaaah.....

I feel like I've hit a wall in my life. It's only a short term problem but I don't like the feeling of it. I'm guessing it's just the effect of an unusual week for me. I worked every day from 9am to 5pm which is highly unusual. Because of the full work schedule I got a little behind on one of my classes and had to rush a two paper in one day. Then earlier in the week I met up with a friend, which in itself isn't a bad thing but there are lingering feelings and thoughts I have for this person. I'm thankful that I've made a lot of progress in rationalizing my feelings and keeping them from going completely haywire. Still with all the progress I have not been able to completely rid myself of the habit of getting easily emotionally attached to people. But all in all, despite the feelings and uncertainty, I've kept moving forward and that is what is most important. Add on the fact that the house is a mess since I haven't been home much and the kids have been having their typical issues so it's been very crazy.

Now that I read what I've been typing, I think it sounds kinda whiny and I don't like that. I try not to whine about things because I know I'm very lucky and I have a lot more than some in this world. I know there are still a few changes that I need to make in my life and the realization of that is slowly starting to set in. First and foremost, I need to get healthier, not only for myself but for the kids. Step one in that process is going to be cutting out all fast food and take out. Step two is going to be giving up my soda addiction and that is going to be the hardest thing of all for me. I know that losing some weight, becoming more active and in general increasing my physical health will end up improving my mental health as well.

Ugh, now that I'm reading all this I feel kinda bad about myself. I'm gonna use that shame to motivate myself to do this. It's hell or high water time baby.